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   leah09

   101 Points

   09/28/09

   I no what you mean i remember the day i had to go and register the death there was a woman sitting beside me with her new born baby waiting to register her birth. just doesnt seem fair at all. i just keep thinking what have i done to deserve this. im sure your thinking like that to! i didnt really do much that day. i dont think it hit me untill that day that she wasnt coming, i think part of me still thought that it had all been a dream. my body is playin tricks on me yano i still thinki i can feel her kicking me then i realise shes not there anymore. its def been harder this week for me than the week i had and burried her! xx
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   09/30/09

   Reply from dizzyangel:

   oh hun, im sorry.
   i know what you mean about it being like a dream. i kept thinking and hoping all day that i would wake up from it all and i will start having contractions and all my dreams would come true. deep down i know that will never happen but a glimmer of hope was there.

   i cannot believe how many babies i saw on my due date either, every where i looked there was one! i went for a meal with my family on the 22nd, just two days before, an a couple with a new born came and sat right next to us! i was so pissed off and if i hadn't felt so sick i would have cried. my mum and sister were cooing like mad and saying how cute they were but i didnt even look. dont you just seem to see babies and pregnant women everywhere now? its so unfair.
   hope you feel a little better each day
   hugs xxxx

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   leah09

   101 Points

   09/26/09

   hiya. how u doin?! hope your due date passed by peacefully. your idea about the balloon was lovely me and my partner just went up to our babys grave not reali wat we had in mind for that day.
   take care x

   09/28/09

   Reply from dizzyangel:

   Hi, im doing ok i think. the day was going well until i decided to ring 'daddy' thinking it was the 'right' thing to do. I had managed to keep it together and get my balloon with out crying - even though there was a woman in the shop buying flowers for her daughter who had just given birth to a baby boy that morning, it felt like a slap in the face. it should have been my mum in there doing that!!!!
   i really hope your day went well. did you get up to anything else that day?
   hugs xxxx

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